Creative Meanderings

…or something like that! 😀 Each day gets a little bit better. This morning I woke up with a less heavy heart and a return of light in my spirit. I have come to realize just how great my friends really are and at how much I have changed in letting friends become so much to me. Usually, I have tried to keep people at a distance, only letting a few get close.…

When I was doing my life coach sessions, Karen would often remind me that everyone’s greatest fear is of being alone. This made sense to me. However, I think I have a greater fear than that – being abandoned. Since I was a year old, I have been repeatedly abandoned. By the time I was eight I had been abandoned at least six times. No wonder my relationships were never all that healthy…

There’s a heaviness in my heart that threatens now and then to turn into a darkness. So far, I have been keeping it away and focusing my mind on the things I should be happy about. This is no easy feat. Now that Christmas has passed, I can start reflecting and preparing for the upcoming new year. We still have a Christmas party to get through that will be both wonderful and sad…

After receiving such lovely gifts and going out the other night, yesterday was a complete 180 away from that. It’s strange how small triggers in our minds can set off huge storms in our interactions with others. The voices that we let override logic control so much of our behavior and reactions. It is a shame when the results are negative and we cannot see how the negativity completely derails our lives. So,…

The other day we were walking through the mall and I wanted to stop in a watch store just to see if they had anything interesting. I mentioned that recently I was into the rose gold color and the kind that I really like I could not afford. R asked me what ones and I said Michael Kors. Oh how I love Michael Kors still. When we got home, R sent me a…

It’s that time of year again when I can finally relax and try to put all my thoughts together again. I may not write so much here as I start to settle my mind into some things. The good news is that I’m doing quite well nearly off the Cipralex. I have had some vertigo issues, which may be one side effect of coming off, but overall I think I’m doing well. My…

I’m on another writing project, so I am trying to stay ahead of the deadline. It is strange that I can actually put myself together when it means there is money involved and when it is doing something that I enjoy. However, I do have a goal for my PhD for the next three weeks. It’s just about the baby steps. 😀 -T