Creative Meanderings

My ramblings and wanderings through life

  • Life continues to move forward. I am not yet fully in a headspace where I know what to write here, which is a rarity. It’s not that I am necessarily depressed nor dwelling on any kind of grief. My intellectual brain says, “They were just dogs.” My heart says, “They were my babies.” My soul says, “Everything happens for a reason and we just need to keep going to learn and apply the…

  • Well, it’s taken me almost a month to be able to post about this or to write on here at all. I have been avoiding emotional processing of the loss of these two beautiful souls. At the beginning, I sobbed. I spent hours rewatching videos over the three short years we had with them. I looked at photos so that I would erase the memory of their lifeless bodies and only remember when…

  • It started in a castle and ended with an Afternoon Tea. We had a long weekend away to England flying in and out of Bristol, with a drive to Devon/Tavistock, then the beachside in Instow and a final day back in Bristol before our early flight home. It was a lot of fun and fairly relaxing for a trip to the UK with M. Usually, he tries to pack as much as he…

  • Things are looking up in terms of returning to a “normal” way of life. I’ve been to the doctor again for an ultrasound check. Unfortunately, this revealed there is still some inflammation and liquid in my large intestine from the operation, but she didn’t seem overly worried about it. So, I am on some more meds to help with that and will go for another check up at the end of the month.…

  • Two weeks. It feels like the longest two weeks ever, yet my healing is coming along so nicely that I can see an end to the slow days and movements not too far in the near future. These days, I have been up and about more in the mornings. This is when I get house chores done, and try to create some sort of normal in our dust-filled, mid-construction home. The end of…

  • It’s been just over a week now since O-day. Overall, everything seems good in terms of the healing. I’m still generally off the pain meds, but still taking some arnica montana 30c a few times throughout the day. However, the mood the last couple of days has been less than stellar. Probably, my insides are healing as the pain has been a bit more unpredictable. The gas and bowel movements are still not…

  • This picture pretty much expresses how I have been moving the past week. Tomorrow will be one week post-hysterectomy-operation. Today, at Day 7 (surgery day = Day 1), I feel pretty good, all things considered. It’s the first day that I have taken a mere 5 pellets of 30c arnica montana and nothing else. So, that’s my highlight. Over the weekend, I made sure that I stood up and walked around regularly. The…

  • Well, at the end of my last update just over a month ago, I promised to keep this space informed. Since things happened quickly in between other life activities, I am writing now at home – post operation. First, let me just say to women, who have had c-sections and then needed to care for a newborn, I bow down in so much new respect to you! I mean, my goodness, wtf?! OK,…

  • Some months ago, I was invited to visit Barcelona. At the time, I surprised myself as much as anyone when I said, “Sure!”. Usually, when I say yes to something I regret it later, but I just didn’t think about it this time and when the time got closer, I embraced the potential experience. To also help diffuse my potential anxiety, I asked a friend to join me. Initially, she wasn’t sure if…

  • It’s been a busy week to kick off the new month of May. Every day, I find myself saying that it’s temporary or that in a couple of weeks it will be slower. Yet, I have finally accepted – yes, just today after all these years! – that each day is a game of balance and it is going to be different than the one before or the next one. Consistency is not…

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