Tag: depression
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Had Better Days…
It’s been just over a week now since O-day. Overall, everything seems good in terms of the healing. I’m still generally off the pain meds, but still taking some arnica montana 30c a few times throughout the day. However, the mood the last couple of days has been less than stellar. Probably, my insides are…
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S.A.D.
When I lived in Oregon as a young person I would often have a sense of melancholy during the winter or grey sky days. For a long time, I chalked it up to me just being a bit depressive by nature and a characteristic of my more introspective ways. 😢 Then, I heard about this…
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Mortality – In the Physical World
For as long as I can remember I have had a very unattached mentality towards the idea of mortality. Perhaps due to the forced acceptance of loss at an early age, I have always kept a logical and unemotional view of death – for death is just a loss of the presence of someone from…
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A Bit of a Funk
I know it’s been a while since I have written. I kept thinking about sitting down to write a post and then I didn’t. Time passes by quickly whether I am happy or whether I am sad. Time stops for no one. It’s really just a matter of how we spend the time. People go…
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Zip Zapping Away
It’s the middle of the night as I write this. Despite falling asleep around 10ish, which is our usual weekend bedtime, I jolted awake feeling overheated and paranoid about the mosquito loose somewhere in the room even though M “locked it” in the closet. If I know there is a mosquito, I will not sleep…
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Walking on Sunshine
Day 4 – chemical free with the help of a break from the grey and falling spit from the sky. Yesterday was foggy both in my mind and in the weather. It continues to get colder day-by-day, but with the sun in the sky my heart warms today. It is not clear whether it is…
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Days of Rest
These days we are so into being ‘busy’ and complain about how we must surely be more ‘tired’ and ‘stressed’ than everyone else. In competing for the worst life situation, we create personalities that never learn how to relax and rest. As an introvert, this is nearly impossible to maintain. Luckily, being regularly considered odd…
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De-Press-Ants-Anti
Two days before the darkest days of my life started I began a new round of anti-depressants because as I had written, I was considering it based on my up and down moods. Luckily, they kicked in on the day that I had to cope to distract me from the reality of our situation. It…
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When the World Spirals
When my husband makes a point of telling me that I am constantly seeming grumpy or on edge and then have these bouts of “weirdness” where I am overly silly and happy, then I take a step back to consider the validity of his comments. Although never formally diagnosed as depressed or bipolar according to…
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Bad Days Happen…
We often focus on being happy all the time. It is now considered a sort of tragedy if a bad day happens or you somehow are ‘letting it happen’ to you. The truth is that bad days happen! It is a part of life. There is no good or bad about it, they just pass…
