Tag: Bipolar
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Just a Dip…
There can be such loneliness in togetherness. I imagine that those couples who decide to get divorced after 20+ years together best understand this sentiment. When there is no one and nothing left to justify the lack of communication, lack of interest in trying to be heard, lack of trying to be a unit, then…
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Ups and Downs Check-in
It has been ages since I have written about my ‘ups and downs’ as I think that they have been much less extreme since the “new norm” involved being at home more than out. If there ever was a doubt that I am an introvert, I think that the past nine months have wiped away…
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A Bit of a Funk
I know it’s been a while since I have written. I kept thinking about sitting down to write a post and then I didn’t. Time passes by quickly whether I am happy or whether I am sad. Time stops for no one. It’s really just a matter of how we spend the time. People go…
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Flexible Inflexibility
It has been a while since I have checked in about my ups and downs. Somehow, they seem to be less frequent or, at least, less obvious to me. Perhaps, I should ask my husband, though! 😛 Actually, with my middle-aged body changes, I really don’t know if my moods and energy levels are related…
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Zip Zapping Away
It’s the middle of the night as I write this. Despite falling asleep around 10ish, which is our usual weekend bedtime, I jolted awake feeling overheated and paranoid about the mosquito loose somewhere in the room even though M “locked it” in the closet. If I know there is a mosquito, I will not sleep…
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Walking on Sunshine
Day 4 – chemical free with the help of a break from the grey and falling spit from the sky. Yesterday was foggy both in my mind and in the weather. It continues to get colder day-by-day, but with the sun in the sky my heart warms today. It is not clear whether it is…
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De-Press-Ants-Anti
Two days before the darkest days of my life started I began a new round of anti-depressants because as I had written, I was considering it based on my up and down moods. Luckily, they kicked in on the day that I had to cope to distract me from the reality of our situation. It…
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When the World Spirals
When my husband makes a point of telling me that I am constantly seeming grumpy or on edge and then have these bouts of “weirdness” where I am overly silly and happy, then I take a step back to consider the validity of his comments. Although never formally diagnosed as depressed or bipolar according to…
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Bad Days Happen…
We often focus on being happy all the time. It is now considered a sort of tragedy if a bad day happens or you somehow are ‘letting it happen’ to you. The truth is that bad days happen! It is a part of life. There is no good or bad about it, they just pass…
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These Episodes
So…the memory is so often unreliable. We tend to easily remember the bad things that happen to us or the moments when others have let us down in some way or another, no matter how little or a lot. However, we have the amazing ability to forget all the good things or the status quo…
