It’s been a busy week to kick off the new month of May.

Every day, I find myself saying that it’s temporary or that in a couple of weeks it will be slower. Yet, I have finally accepted – yes, just today after all these years! – that each day is a game of balance and it is going to be different than the one before or the next one. Consistency is not a viable goal to have. Somehow, this new acceptance gives me some peace.

I wrote on a comment post this morning that it is social season like the “Bridgerton” Netflix series. We have been socializing quite a bit catching up with those who are returning after being gone a while, which is lovely but also a little tiring for us since we are early risers every day. No matter how late we go to bed, we are up early. For the most part, this is M’s doing. However, it is also the pups who need to be let out. Also, I’m a partial culprit, though I know I would definitely go ahead and sleep a little later if I could. 🤪 For the next few weeks, it will also be a requirement as the work on our bathrooms has begun and the construction days start at 7:30 am! 😬

So, with these changes of activities and influences of maintaining friendly relations, it is a constant state of fluctuation of schedules in which I try to ensure I get enough writing done or stay on top of the various tasks that I have and want to get done in a day.

However, I realized as I was journaling today that I have started to sound like a broken record. This, then, led me to let go of the idea that I can recreate each day in the same way. This aspiration is beyond reach. If I’m honest, it is also not fully desired no matter how much I might claim otherwise.

It’s never been my dream to have average days. I have never wanted the ordinary life. Therefore, it seems silly, now that I think about it more, to keep trying to fit my daily routine and schedule into such a pattern. So, I shall embrace the variety that each morning offers. While I will hold fast to some repetitive behaviors and try to maintain them, such as getting up to do yoga and meditate and keep up my workout routine, I will also aim to no longer fight the changes that will inevitably come.

Still, I do have a disclaimer lest any reader might think this introverted, OCD organizer should think a massive personality shift is on the brink. I am not fully embracing spontaneity in the sense that scheduling and my task alarms are no more. No, indeed! These remain an important part of my life!!! I’m just saying that the times of the alarms might be adjustable day to day; AND, I will still have a schedule each day! 😅

~T 🔥🐉♋️