Category: Going Mental
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Arising Out of the Ashes…
…or something like that! 😀 Each day gets a little bit better. This morning I woke up with a less heavy heart and a return of light in my spirit. I have come to realize just how great my friends really are and at how much I have changed in letting friends become so much…
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Fear of Being Alone
When I was doing my life coach sessions, Karen would often remind me that everyone’s greatest fear is of being alone. This made sense to me. However, I think I have a greater fear than that – being abandoned. Since I was a year old, I have been repeatedly abandoned. By the time I was…
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Heartache
There’s a heaviness in my heart that threatens now and then to turn into a darkness. So far, I have been keeping it away and focusing my mind on the things I should be happy about. This is no easy feat. Now that Christmas has passed, I can start reflecting and preparing for the upcoming…
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Merry Christmas Part 2
After receiving such lovely gifts and going out the other night, yesterday was a complete 180 away from that. It’s strange how small triggers in our minds can set off huge storms in our interactions with others. The voices that we let override logic control so much of our behavior and reactions. It is a…
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Merry Christmas to Me from R
The other day we were walking through the mall and I wanted to stop in a watch store just to see if they had anything interesting. I mentioned that recently I was into the rose gold color and the kind that I really like I could not afford. R asked me what ones and I…
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Vacation and Reflection
It’s that time of year again when I can finally relax and try to put all my thoughts together again. I may not write so much here as I start to settle my mind into some things. The good news is that I’m doing quite well nearly off the Cipralex. I have had some vertigo…
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Another Project
I’m on another writing project, so I am trying to stay ahead of the deadline. It is strange that I can actually put myself together when it means there is money involved and when it is doing something that I enjoy. However, I do have a goal for my PhD for the next three weeks.…
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Cipralexing: 10mg to 5mg
This week starts my 5mg run and next week I will be completely off the Cipralex for the first time since March. Nine months is pretty good, even though I had said a year. It is interesting how much changes in a short span. The past couple of weeks I have been extremely energetic and…
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Busy!
It is strange how it seems that when I do not have classes to teach I am actually busier than when I do. Yesterday, I had a presentation for our professional development week. Today, I have one. Tomorrow, I have two. Plus, I’ve got another book summarizing job, PhD transcriptions to do and more. It’s…
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Meh…
I feel meh…no interest in writing anything of interest at the moment. I have some work to prepare for tomorrow, so I will do that to ensure productivity but then the rest of the day will be…?
