Nov 272014

Amidst my general unhappiness with the job at the moment, I do know that there is much to be thankful for and so here is my gratitude list in honor of Thanksgiving.

*12 days of teaching left
*I am able to go to Beirut next Monday evening for four days.
*I have a wonderful man in my life
*My best friend is better than anyone else’s best friend by far and away! :D
*My friends give me great joy, love and support
*My family is my rock and security <3
*I have a job
*I am healthy – physically and mostly mentally
*I have a lot of freedom in my life

So, even though I might like to complain or feel as if the world is not going according to my plan, I really have nothing at all to complain about. Life is truly good and I need to always count my blessings each and every day.

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

-T :D

 Posted by at 13:19
Nov 182014

I think I am a fairly flexible person when it comes to my work. I know I am not as much with my personal life, but professionally, I try hard to put in all of my efforts and beyond.

It is no secret really that my supervisor and I have a tense, but professional relationship. We will probably never see eye-to-eye on things; however, I try to stay out of her way as much as possible. Unfortunately, she doesn’t do the same.

This semester I have been off teaching in order to work full-time in another department. I have not been in the classroom, which translates to some as ‘not doing much work’. Whenever someone is absent I am the first person who is contacted to cover a class. Most of the time I have politely explained that I am in the middle of work and cannot accommodate – it is not a policy that classes need to be covered if someone is absent from teaching.

An adjunct instructor decided to quit suddenly last week. Rather than sit down and have a conversation with me about options or ways to cover her classes between my work and perhaps someone else, I was TOLD that I will be taken back to teach full-time – completely disregarding and devaluing any of the current work in which I was involved in.

As a leadership scholar, I find this attitude and approach out of line. Because I am professional, I accepted the situation with a bit of complaint to the other department supervisor as it did affect the projects for him. However, I did not fight it with my supervisor knowing that it would fall on deaf ears.

The point is that I am pushed to my limits with her and the department. For the second time this semester I have been forced to switch my focus without a real conversation or treatment as a professional. She might say that it is because I am so willing to accommodate or that my work is reliable and professional so that is why. Whatever the reason, the point is that I have had a enough of being the ‘go-to’ person. There are 84 other people whom I work with who are also professionals that could be called upon….

So, that’s my current life….four weeks of full-time teaching again – not really a bad thing, but unexpected….

-T :D

 Posted by at 09:23
Nov 112014

It’s been way too long since I’ve written. It has become obvious that I need some better outlet for relieving my angst but I haven’t yet admitted it fully.

M mentioned that my tolerance level has greatly lowered and I realized that as my friend said my BS cup has overflown. There’s no more room for more….

There’s so much to rant about, but maybe I should take some time to form things into more productive and meaningful thoughts rather than a rage of verbal diarrhea. :)

So I will but most importantly I need a massage and a holiday. Maybe both at the same time?! ;P

More to come,


 Posted by at 21:59
Oct 192014

It just dawned on me that it has been nearly a month since I last posted. Where does the time go?

Anyway, all is well overall – just busy between work, after work work and play it’s hard to sit myself down in front of the computer for anything else. However, as with all things it will come around….

The good thing is that I’m staying up and moving along happily! :D

Will try to reinstate a schedule for writing again soon!

– T

 Posted by at 09:41
Sep 242014

For the past couple of weeks I have been tired and unmotivated. At first, I thought it was due to Aunt Flo or stress. Then, I thought perhaps it was because I wasn’t eating enough during the day, which still may be the case. Then, I thought perhaps it was due to an increase in my caffeine intake since work started, which may also be the case. However, two days ago, I realized that really I think it is one of my downs coming on….

Once I sort of focused on that and admitted that I may be getting a little depressed, I have been able to focus on how to keep myself from letting the down go full blown. So far, I seem to be doing okay. I have stopped the caffeine and plan to keep at it for the next couple of weeks to cleanse my system from needing it. Then, I think I can go back to one cup a day… (maybe!). :P

Some ways that I battle the downs is by focusing on myself. This means getting some pampering done, scheduling my life very carefully and ensuring that I am surrounded by positive energies rather than those that drain me. It’s much harder to do than we think, but once done, life is definitely better. So, I’m starting to breathe a bit more and refocusing myself on what needs to be done. Phew! :D

More to come,


Sep 142014

I think being tired is perhaps one of the worst things in life. Yes, that may sound extreme, but tiredness affects so much of our bodies and mental health.

This weekend was meant to be somewhat relaxing, but somehow it wasn’t quite. It was actually a really nice weekend with my friend’s babies’ shower (she’s having twins!) and some relaxing. However, one night of not enough sleep makes it feel like the world is doomed! :P

Anyway, I am sure that everything will be better with a good night’s sleep! :D

Until then,


 Posted by at 17:25
Sep 082014

I’m tired. My nose is plugged. My throat is sore. My chest is congested.

Yet, somehow I’m awake and smiling. :D

Hopefully, this will pass soon – it’s already been nearly a week! :(

More to come,


 Posted by at 15:43
Sep 072014

I am not sure where the time has gone, but the past two weeks have whizzed by. So, what’s been going on?

First of all, work started up and there have been daily changes to my schedule. Originally, I was scheduled to co-coordinate a new semester course that I spent a lot of time working on with my colleagues at the end of last academic year. The plan was to work about half time in that role with teaching and half time in the CEI. Then, some space opened up allowing me to work 3/4 time in the CEI and only teach five hours. However, this meant that I had to give up the coordinating and let go of all the work that had been done up until then. It was a bit difficult to make that decision, but I felt it was for the best. I thought all was good, but then today the schedule was threatened to be changed again…. I did my best to try to keep things are they are and I think that it is finally settled. So it seems that I will be able to do 3/4 time in the CEI, which is where I have been wanting to make a move. Initially, I was planned to do some content development for training purposes and design along with some research support. However, as of today I will be like a research assistant on a large-scale research project through the CEI and also (hopefully) doing research support. So…that’s a sigh of relief!

I have started doing some private tutoring in order to bump up my income a bit as I need to make the bills go away faster. So far, I’ve got two students that seem like they’ll be long-term and promising. :D

This weekend I finished my last co-active coaching course and am not a qualified coach! I got sick with a cold as well, so am still recovering from that.

So, that’s my life the past two weeks in brief! Hopefully, I will be back to a more normal life again soon.

More to come,


 Posted by at 20:12
Aug 272014

1. I am grateful that today passed successfully surpassing even my high expectations.

2. I am grateful that I was granted money back on a scam that I fell for…long and silly story, but no harm no foul. ;)

3. I am sooooo grateful that tomorrow is the end of the week so that I can do some PhD work!


It was a gooooood day. My colleague and good friend and co-teacher and co-coordinator, T and I ran our first big meeting for the course we are leading. The meeting went well and everyone seemed fairly pleased with what we had to offer. Even my ex-bf and staunch critic gave us a huge thanks, compliments and led a round of applause. That’s HUGE! So, we are both feeling pret-ty good about things now. :) Phew, too!!!

So, now that is done with. Tomorrow I have to meet my supervisor to talk about the drama at the end of last term and what’s coming up next. I need to remember to stay gracious and humble through it all. It was my fault and so I need to own up to that without falling under the temptation of making excuses or laying blame…even IF blame can be laid. :P

Overall, things are quite good. I’m feeling pretty happy these days, which is helping me to return focus on that little ol’ dissertation thingy. Speaking of…!

More to come,


 Posted by at 16:54
Aug 262014

1. I am grateful that the week is half over! :P It has been nothing but go-go-go since Sunday….

2. I am grateful that my bf is back and that I also had the chance to miss him. It’s not that I was taking him for granted by any means, but usually I am the one who is traveling and though I miss him then it is not the same as being the one left in normal life. So, I was glad to get a different perspective and to also realize that he really is an important part of my life.

3. I am grateful to have a wonderful working relationship with my friend and colleague, T, since we have really needed to be on the same page so far this week. So far so goooooood! :D

Phew! What a crazy first three days of work. It’s been nearly back-to-back meetings on top of trying to catch up with friends/colleagues on top of normal life on top of my PhD! [Yeah, don’t ask me how well that’s going at the moment! :|]

In any case, I am hoping [HOPING] it will slow down after tomorrow and then I can settle into class routine and finish this stinking dissertation because at the moment I might freak out!!!!! :D :D :D [crazy faces]

Break over.

More to come,


 Posted by at 17:32