May 282017
 

It ended up being a nice weekend with friends and relaxing.

We did our last brunch for the next month due to Ramadan starting on Saturday morning. We went with a new group of people, which was good, but also a challenge. First, it seems lately I am always over-dressed for things. I sometimes blame my husband for telling me that people will be fancy and then finding out that is not the case. Luckily, I am confident in my body that I was not overly self-conscious about the fact that while one person was in jeans, I was completely on the other side of the scale. ๐Ÿ˜›

It may also be our last brunch ever here since we are winding down and getting over the brunch scene a bit. Since I was not drinking at all, it sort of loses its fun when everyone is sober! Is that a terrible statement of socializing? ๐Ÿ˜

In any case, we did still have a good time and if it was our last, we enjoyed it.

Yesterday was more about running errands and trying not to let the start of Ramadan make us too sad given that we will have to eat behind curtains and in darker venues if we want to eat out. Toย celebrate we met Z for breakfast at Denny’s. M is not the biggest fan, but I was really wanting an American breakfast that would fill me up. It was a success! I polished off the complete Lumberjack Slam and was full until dinnertime. ๐Ÿ˜‰

We did a few other stops before pushing ourselves to not let the hot temps deter us from hitting the beach. M wanted to get one more sea swim in before the temperature of the water became too gross. I think he is right as this may have been the last weekend for that since it was just cool enough, but definitely notย cool. We spent probably two hours in the water having a gab and soaking up the sun.

It was definitely what all of us needed, I think.

So, it’s another week beginning with much quieter plans for the week ahead. Still, life is moving along.

~T ๐Ÿ˜€

 Posted by at 11:04
May 272017
 

My workouts are still stagnant. I need to get myself moving or at the very least outside in the sun. I will aim to do more of that this week since my schedule is (fortunately or not) freeing up. For this week, I managed:

May 21st (Sunday)

  • 60′ Ladies’ Wellness Yoga

May 22nd (Monday)

  • 60′ Ladies Wellness Yoga

May 23rd (Tuesday)

  • 60′ Private yoga session

May 24th (Wednesday)

  • 60′ Men’s Wellness Yoga

May 25th (Thursday)

  • Poolside

May 26th -27th (Friday – Saturday)

  • Rest

There is a small chance that I will do some yoga later or even the gym, but it is small for the weekend. Likely, I will make it up this week as I try to regulate the working out or perhaps just let my brain accept that this amount of yoga is enough…. ๐Ÿ˜›

Until then,

~T ๐Ÿ˜€

May 262017
 

Well, we know that I am not a fan of the news. In current political times, I am even less so. However, upon seeing this recommended on the Podcast Community Facebook group I am a part of, I decided just to check it out.

The Dailyย podcast is a short podcast hosted by Michael Barbaro and powered by New York Times.ย Every day – aside from weekends – there is an update about what is happening with our president. It’s a nice quick listen and keeps me updated on the latest in a way that is not negative nor dramatic. It’s just information or as some might call it, news. ๐Ÿ˜›

So, I definitely feel it is worth breaking up my true crime podcasts to have a quick listen as to what is happening in the world that day (or rather the day before). Check it out for yourself!

~T ๐Ÿ˜€

May 252017
 

M says I “have one on me” lately. For the non-Brit readers, this means something similar to “having a bee in my bonnet” or simply being generally irritable. ๐Ÿ˜›

It is probably true…. Between fighting depression and wanting to sleep, hormonal imbalance, feeling fat these days (no, I know I am not, but I feel it!), starting to look for work, trying to keep up with other work and stay sane through our continualย transition period, I cannot imagine why I might “have one on me”! Can you??? ๐Ÿ˜‰

In any case, we were watching this documentary last night about four women who decided to row across the Pacific Ocean – the Coxless Crew. The documentary is on Netflix calledย Losing Sight of Shore. What an amazing feat and test of character for these women. Yet, throughout they were called “girls”. WTF?

After my little rant on that, we started watchingย The Matrix and in the opening scene, the policeman says “I think we can handle one little girl” referring to Trinity, who is a major badass! Of course, in this scene, I get the irony of using the term “girl” to refer to her because we find out – if you don’t already know – that she is far from a “little girl”.

Still, this takes me to a discussion on microaggressions and our lack of progress in society where we still belittle the female gender. This kind of mentality and behavior isย encouraged in every scene and setting of life from high school gym class to the office and to the home. We justify it by saying “It’s a just cultural” like M saying that the use of it in the documentary is “British middle-class” as if to say it is okay.

It is not okay. It is not okay to belittle women or to over empower men. Although our physical and mental statures may have differences, it does not mean that we should judge one as better than another. Instead, imagine if we looked at each other as equals with different gifts to offer. Our different gifts give us balance like yin and yang. One is not stronger or better than the other, instead we need both for healthy unity.

So, yes, maybe I do “have one on me”, but do you blame me? ๐Ÿ˜›

~T ๐Ÿ˜€

May 242017
 

This morning I had a quick chat with a friend. When I said that I am feeling tired and pretty much just want to sleep most of the time lately, she asked if I am ok because it sounded like depression.

When I thought about it, I realized she is probably right. I am likely in a depressive state, but being so familiar with these cycles and having a husband who sleep minimally, I am staying above the dark line.

Part of it can be attributed to pre-Aunt Flo visit as I always get extremely tired. Plus, I have been apparently irritable or ‘strange’ according to the man. I suppose my insistence on having some Oreo’s the other night is also a telling sign! ๐Ÿ˜‰

Another part can be given to stress. Obviously there is going to be stress at the thought of having six weeks to get ourselves packed up and ready to move, but with no idea as to where.

Still, the job hunting has been keeping me active. Each day I submit a new CV or receive emails on other possibilities. I had another Skype interview last night and have put forth some more applications this morning. So, we shall see what comes to fruition first. Plus, M is still on the push for making France happen. ๐Ÿ˜›

I also have a new writing gig that pays peanuts, but is steady and so far seems manageable. Therefore, that keeps me going.

So, there’s really nothing to be overly depressed about, but yes the whirlwind of life can be deceiving as I stay busy with tutoring and yoga amidst the rest. Still, I am keeping an eye on myself and tomorrow shall plop myself down at the pool for a day of reading and sleeping whilst soaking up some needed Vitamin D. Stay tuned for that! ๐Ÿ˜‰

~T ๐Ÿ˜€

May 232017
 

Well, within an hour of my sending out CVs, I got a hit right away. We emailed, we Skyped. Then, it was time to discuss and ponder.

When we agreed to open up the door to my finding a job, we did also agree to just see where would present itself. Now that doors have appeared, it is not really for us to say No to them or keep searching in hopes of something seemingly better.

So, without giving too many details at this point, all that I can report is that we have taken the first step and said Yes to some options.

Now, just to see what really happens!

~T ๐Ÿ˜€

May 222017
 

Well, M and I had a short but pointed chat yesterday and it has been decided that I need to look for work.

Basically, he will continue to do what he is doing with the hopes that something will work out sooner than later.

In the meantime, I will be looking for returning to teaching full-time anywhere, somewhere in the world.

The reality is that we need a regular paycheck coming in to ensure that we have no more stresses about paying rent, bills, etc. We still owe people money and neither of us like that. It has been over a year now and it just has not worked.

M takes full responsibility for the situation, but I never blame him for it. The truth is that we gave it a go with me not working and the situation is just not for us at this point in time. I am a little bit sad about it, but at the same time I am also glad to have a step forward.

Before, I felt as if I was stuck. I wanted to be respectful of his efforts and desire to not have us in different places. However, the time has come and while he may feel a bit defeated by the reality; the truth is that we are in a partnership. It is not for just one person to carry the weight and if the other can do more, then it needs to be done.

So, I shall be putting my CV out there again and seeing what comes up. I do believe that the Universe and God will provide what is best – just have to look for the best door of opportunity to open up and go through. ๐Ÿ˜‰

~T ๐Ÿ˜€

 Posted by at 08:43
May 212017
 

Five months gone with one long weekend a month practicing and learning yoga from the inside out. The connections made have been sweet and likely to be somewhat lasting, but only time will tell as we start to go our separate ways. We will always have our WhatsApp group, though to keep in touch.

During the weekend I felt as if I had a lot of energy, plus we were going out every night afterwards, which surprised even me!

However, now I am totally exhausted. I did not want to wake up this morning. The TV is calling my name as I sit on the couch trying to get everything else that is on my regular to-do list done. There are always other things to be done, but honestly I am so tired right now that I feel as if I just want to go back to sleep for a couple of hours. I do not know if I will since that is hard for me, but finally the days have caught up with me.

I do have my cup of coffee in hand and am surrounded by my notebooks, devices, etc. So, maybe just being parked on the couch will be enough for now. ๐Ÿ˜€

In any case, I am in total recovery mode today…this is it!

~T ๐Ÿ˜€

 Posted by at 08:55
May 202017
 

So, my week started out fairly motivated and enthusiastic about getting into shape and then as the week wore on I started to feel tired and lazier. I have told myself that because I have a full weekend ahead of yoga that it is okay to take it easier during the week… ๐Ÿ˜›

I know there is not really anything to feel bad about, but my weight is not really changing, so this is my issue…. Anyway, I shall not worry about it – here is what I did do this week:

May 14th (Sunday)

  • 80′ Ashtanga primary series via YouTube
  • 60′ Ladies’ Wellness Yoga

May 15th (Monday)

  • 30′ Ashtanga introductory series via YouTube + 15′ meditation

May 16th (Tuesday)

  • 60′ Private yoga session

May 17th (Wednesday)

  • 60′ Men’s Wellness Yoga

May 18th – 20th (Thursday – Saturday)

  • Last 200hr Yoga Teacher Training Weekend before the exams!
May 192017
 

Well, it seems that I really cannot get away from these true crime podcasts. I try to mix it up when I finish a series, but inevitably I am drawn back. ๐Ÿ˜‰

So, I had heard of Up and Vanishedย through the MFM podcast and decided to give it a go. The first episode left me unsure if I would continue as the production of it was strange and the music/sounds were not great. However, it was the case that interested me and by the second episode the host – Payne Lindsey – had upped his game.

I am not quite finished with it as he extended the season to 18 episodes and I have just finished the 11th episode, which was originally meant to be the second to last one for the season. I am not sure how it is going to end and I do save the podcasts for when I am in the car; however, I may have to do some baking, which means that I’ll definitely be listening to it then!

For someone who has never done a podcast before, I think Lindsey has done well to make it sound professional and to engage the listeners. The cold case story is also very interesting through his interviews and investigations. I am hoping there is some sort of conclusion to this case, but even if not, I am definitely enjoying it.

Once I finish the series, I will update! ๐Ÿ˜‰

~T ๐Ÿ˜€